Boring

Last night wanted to go for a drink at night but somehow I end up waiting. Think it had been too long already.

Spending the last 4 months thinking of a lot of things that had happen.
Slowly I realise that I like to be single. No need to worry about or care about the other half feeling. This type of feeling never came to me until recently. Somehow it is always easier to be single.

Being Single, you can do alot of things and it doesn't really need to care how the other half feel. I like to be single now... maybe it is for life maybe it will not be for life. But as of now I know my dream to marry young will not happen and I am also not looking for it. I like to be like this now.

Sometime with someone by your side, you feel that you have to be responsible for your action and what to say and how to express in order to let the other be happy. you need to gain trust and alot of stuff.

Maybe things will change as time passed this low period, maybe it will not change. But one things is for sure, after 2 relationships, I understand myself more and realise that both relationships doesn't work out because there is more reason to it. From both experience, I realise that I need to find someone who is in the middle of the 2 girls. Both were 2 extreme in terms of character. I think I need someone in the middle.

I also came to know that there is no right one or right timing. Just that whether both can click or not. Both understand each other and started on equal footing and no guessing. Everyone is very hard to guess and there is always something that ppl want to keep for life. Some something are meant to be kept till death and some are just for the time being.

I like the freedom of being Single yet like the feeling of having someone by my side. Maybe you can call this companionship. If in a relationship, trust is never there its heading towards failure from the word go. Trust need time, but trust is also giving the benefit of the doubt.

I studied economic, and in economics everything is based on assumptions. There is also a saying... Assumptions is the mother of evil. Assumptions destory everything in person to person relationships. Once you assume the other person is something which he is not, you already passed a judgement on the person. You already given him the death sentence before even God passed HIS sentence. YOU ARE GREATER THAN GOD. WELL DONE.

If you are still reading until here... you must be interested to know what I am writing... haha... I just saying rubbish mixed with current feeling with a pinch of salt. HAHAHAHA... the reason for this long and I think a bit rubbish is because I AM BORED.

Thanks for reading. :)