A day had passed... now into 25 years and 1 day old.
HAHA.....
I was running through my MSN contact this morning, (housekeeping for the year) then I saw on Seb MSN that wish me Happy Birthday. It just brighten up my day. HAHA... Thank SEB.
A lot of people wished me happy birthday yesterday. I will like to thanks everyone here for remembering my birthday.
Called it whatever you want:...one year older, one year wiser or ONE YEAR YOUNGER... hahaaha... It is just a day that celebrate a year that pass and add some mileage onto your personal life story book. We will continue to walk the story, with chapter opening and closing every now and then.
Let just hope the 26th chapter is the best that is to be... I am still damn bloody young. Haven't had a start on my career yet only having a job now. I just hope I get good job offer soon.... hai, cannot wait to leave the company. This 26th chapter, I want to write it differently from the rest of the 25 chapter that had been written so far.
Time of the year to look forward for the new year to be better than the last. This year was a "long" year for me, just hope 2008 is less eventful and more peaceful for me. Too much rubbish and nonsense in 2007 that according to horoscope was suppose to be a very good year for me. The horoscope is all rubbish lah... u shape your own life and decide what you want in it.
FATE IS IN YOUR OWN HANDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally, I like to wish all a MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A FULFILLING 2008 AHEAD.
2008....hope this is finally the best ahead for all my friends and family.
Cheers and see all soon
23 December 2007
21 December 2007
One year older
Hmm.... As the time struck 12, I will be one more year older on SAT.
This had not been a good year to say the least... actually is one of the worst. So many things had happen. I am in a really bad job.... no prospect no future lousy pay... Boring job... nothing new to look for. I think it is really time to change job now. But I want to change to something that I can last longer and not bluff by the lousy HR and Managers (Lousy Boss), only matter of time b4 the company close down.
This 2007 is also a total lousy year to talk or speak of. Just hope to pass fast than the speed of light. So much things happen at home just pray everything turn out fine for 2008. Hai~ total rubbish year to speak of.... 2007 suck suck sucks~!!!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2008 what to hope for???.... I wish for a peaceful year... too many things had happened in the last 2 years... until I see life as it is now... nothing to look forward to at all. Hopefully something good will happen for me to look forward to. A changing of jobs will help in the process of changes. that is the first things that must be done and will be done.
MY BIRTHDAY WISHES FOR THE NEW YEAR WILL BE:
1. A CHANGE OF JOB TO ONE THAT PAYS WELL AND TREAT EMPLOYEE AS THEIR ASSETS.
2. A HEALTHY BODY FOR THOSE AROUND ME,FAMILY AND FRIENDS
3. NOT TO BE TOLD
4. PERSONAL WISH
5. WORLD PEACE............................HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Merry Christmas and A (really have to be) HAPPY NEW YEAR
This had not been a good year to say the least... actually is one of the worst. So many things had happen. I am in a really bad job.... no prospect no future lousy pay... Boring job... nothing new to look for. I think it is really time to change job now. But I want to change to something that I can last longer and not bluff by the lousy HR and Managers (Lousy Boss), only matter of time b4 the company close down.
This 2007 is also a total lousy year to talk or speak of. Just hope to pass fast than the speed of light. So much things happen at home just pray everything turn out fine for 2008. Hai~ total rubbish year to speak of.... 2007 suck suck sucks~!!!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2008 what to hope for???.... I wish for a peaceful year... too many things had happened in the last 2 years... until I see life as it is now... nothing to look forward to at all. Hopefully something good will happen for me to look forward to. A changing of jobs will help in the process of changes. that is the first things that must be done and will be done.
MY BIRTHDAY WISHES FOR THE NEW YEAR WILL BE:
1. A CHANGE OF JOB TO ONE THAT PAYS WELL AND TREAT EMPLOYEE AS THEIR ASSETS.
2. A HEALTHY BODY FOR THOSE AROUND ME,FAMILY AND FRIENDS
3. NOT TO BE TOLD
4. PERSONAL WISH
5. WORLD PEACE............................HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Merry Christmas and A (really have to be) HAPPY NEW YEAR
28 October 2007
thou week that passed
Any week had passed.
So much happened the last week, too much to write it all out.
Last night I really found out something, St James, MOS and those similar places are just really an empty shell. I was so happy yesterday that I slept early on a SAT night. So Fulfill.
Its been really a long long time since I felt this way, suddenly life is more meaningful again. HAHA.
Tomolo monday come, back to the cruel world of acting.... where the fittest surive. Where being mean is the way out.
So much happened the last week, too much to write it all out.
Last night I really found out something, St James, MOS and those similar places are just really an empty shell. I was so happy yesterday that I slept early on a SAT night. So Fulfill.
Its been really a long long time since I felt this way, suddenly life is more meaningful again. HAHA.
Tomolo monday come, back to the cruel world of acting.... where the fittest surive. Where being mean is the way out.
24 October 2007
I need a break
I feel that I am in need of a break.
I wish to travel oversea soon... but i know it is near impossible now.
Too many things is waiting to be solved now.
I guess i have to wait until next year to go for my break.
HAI~~~!!!!!
I wish to travel oversea soon... but i know it is near impossible now.
Too many things is waiting to be solved now.
I guess i have to wait until next year to go for my break.
HAI~~~!!!!!
14 October 2007
Thoughts
I was reading DS and KH blog, they were writing of thoughts. :)
To me too many things happened recently until I tired to write it out. haha. Life is too unpredictable and too complicated.
There is too much backstabbing, too many mind playing going around. Therefore, those who are weak in the mind will fall. Those that backstab and influence will be get their deserved in time.
I saw many things recently, friends that will really stand by you in time. Friends that will give up in exchange of short-term interests. Friends that will be more concern of the present enviroment that the feeling of others. It is a dark truth. But a truth that will be important for me to learn now. There is why people keep saying that the family is always more important than friends. In time of diffculty, only family remind.
Friends that stood by you are those that had went through times with you. Really in life you don't need many friends, just a few good and trustworthy friends. Friends that will stand by you in tme of diffculty. I believe I had found them. Nothing changes and they are still friends I can look to in times of need. It also hit me that it is not about how long but how close the bond is.
The first day in Army at Tekong, the commander tell the young innocent soilders. "Today on, you are going to be transform from boy to man. 2 and half year later you will take away experience that will make you man. But more importantly also friends that you will and can call upon in time of needs and diffculty. Because here you make friends for life. Buddies that will stand by you."
I just want to thanks them who stood by me. THANK YOU.
To me too many things happened recently until I tired to write it out. haha. Life is too unpredictable and too complicated.
There is too much backstabbing, too many mind playing going around. Therefore, those who are weak in the mind will fall. Those that backstab and influence will be get their deserved in time.
I saw many things recently, friends that will really stand by you in time. Friends that will give up in exchange of short-term interests. Friends that will be more concern of the present enviroment that the feeling of others. It is a dark truth. But a truth that will be important for me to learn now. There is why people keep saying that the family is always more important than friends. In time of diffculty, only family remind.
Friends that stood by you are those that had went through times with you. Really in life you don't need many friends, just a few good and trustworthy friends. Friends that will stand by you in tme of diffculty. I believe I had found them. Nothing changes and they are still friends I can look to in times of need. It also hit me that it is not about how long but how close the bond is.
The first day in Army at Tekong, the commander tell the young innocent soilders. "Today on, you are going to be transform from boy to man. 2 and half year later you will take away experience that will make you man. But more importantly also friends that you will and can call upon in time of needs and diffculty. Because here you make friends for life. Buddies that will stand by you."
I just want to thanks them who stood by me. THANK YOU.
Services
I went to a service in a church yesterday. Don't get me wrong. I am not a christian or someone that believe in the religion. I am a free thinker. If you really want to put a religion in the slot when u fill up forms, I will still write Buddhism.
Free thinker= Believe there is GOD, but every religion is the same and pray to the same HE. This is my definition of free thinker.
I went to the church for a personal reason. I was surprise how the services are conducted. Then there is a very strong feel that the ppl in the church is very strong in their belief. That is very good. It hit me that very moment that, places of worship play a too important role in the safety of social and balance of economy. I just imagine that this is being taken away, I saw chaos, suffering, unrest and ppl killing each other. It was a very bad sight to behold. It is also hit me that very moment, if the leader of the places of worship is not good hearted or corrupted. They can make use of their "given" power to influence and destroy the govt or social norm. Scary thought. Even to cheat and to TAKE $ away. These leader really need to be vet before being install as one.
That is not the main thing I want to say, however it hit me it is important to write it out also. The main things here is what the Pastors said. he said the word "believe" so many time in his preaching. It is so important to stress that I am not converted at all. But he is such a powerful speaker that he can convince you that the mind is above all. MIND OVER BODY. Believing is using the mind over the Body. Using the hidden power of mind still very unknown to human in today advances in science and technology.
He stress the word so many time, until I start to think of how strong the word is for people.
FOR ME I ONLY HAVE THIS TO SAY.
IF you believe in something, just do it. It will happened for you, because you believe. You have doubt in your mind because of the experience of others but u never do it before, how you know that YOU cannot. Therefore the mind is such a powerful tool, looking into history, every govt use the its power to control and to strike fear in ppl. Those that are strong in the mind, can influence others around them, let them be more positive and forward looking.
I don't want to say anything more of the speech I heard, or what I seen there. TO me a church still need to have a Cross and the building still need to look like a church. If my primary school's memories serve me well, the church is build according to the drawing of building in heaven. And how can church change so much these days. hmmm.... but who am I to say about the design.
I still choose to be a free thinker, I still choose to believe there is GOD. To me, maybe Buddha is the answer to my spiritual thought. The ANSWER to my relieve. There is one last phase to share with ppl that read my blog.
Thou who believe and who seek wisdom will be and shall be delivered from suffering.
(read in between the word if you want to know what I mean)
Free thinker= Believe there is GOD, but every religion is the same and pray to the same HE. This is my definition of free thinker.
I went to the church for a personal reason. I was surprise how the services are conducted. Then there is a very strong feel that the ppl in the church is very strong in their belief. That is very good. It hit me that very moment that, places of worship play a too important role in the safety of social and balance of economy. I just imagine that this is being taken away, I saw chaos, suffering, unrest and ppl killing each other. It was a very bad sight to behold. It is also hit me that very moment, if the leader of the places of worship is not good hearted or corrupted. They can make use of their "given" power to influence and destroy the govt or social norm. Scary thought. Even to cheat and to TAKE $ away. These leader really need to be vet before being install as one.
That is not the main thing I want to say, however it hit me it is important to write it out also. The main things here is what the Pastors said. he said the word "believe" so many time in his preaching. It is so important to stress that I am not converted at all. But he is such a powerful speaker that he can convince you that the mind is above all. MIND OVER BODY. Believing is using the mind over the Body. Using the hidden power of mind still very unknown to human in today advances in science and technology.
He stress the word so many time, until I start to think of how strong the word is for people.
FOR ME I ONLY HAVE THIS TO SAY.
IF you believe in something, just do it. It will happened for you, because you believe. You have doubt in your mind because of the experience of others but u never do it before, how you know that YOU cannot. Therefore the mind is such a powerful tool, looking into history, every govt use the its power to control and to strike fear in ppl. Those that are strong in the mind, can influence others around them, let them be more positive and forward looking.
I don't want to say anything more of the speech I heard, or what I seen there. TO me a church still need to have a Cross and the building still need to look like a church. If my primary school's memories serve me well, the church is build according to the drawing of building in heaven. And how can church change so much these days. hmmm.... but who am I to say about the design.
I still choose to be a free thinker, I still choose to believe there is GOD. To me, maybe Buddha is the answer to my spiritual thought. The ANSWER to my relieve. There is one last phase to share with ppl that read my blog.
Thou who believe and who seek wisdom will be and shall be delivered from suffering.
(read in between the word if you want to know what I mean)
24 September 2007
My thoughts
I called this blog my thoughts.... but I cannot really put my thoughts into this blog. I will be too transparent for everyone.
I shared my thought for my friends to see.... I sometime will leak more than I will want to say but I know what to say. Friends that know me know long enough can read in between the lines and understand me. Those who don't know me long enough, I can only say it take time and effort.
Recently, a lot of stuffs happened.... and I think I grow a lot from it as well. I can say I grew up a bit more. I am really unhappy about my pay now... but who is ever happy I guess. If I am at the benchmark I am contented but I am 40% away from the benchmark so I guess just bide my time for now... when a better offering come along I just had to bid farewell... Loyalties stay with the highest payer. It is the FACT OF REALITY.
It is a fact... I write it now to remind myself so later that I will not let emotion rule my mind.... Everywhere is the same... everyone do the same things. Unless HE is born rich and no need to work... else why we work so hard for???
Recently I found new reason to watch soccer again... not sure how come I lose a bit of interests the past season. Last season to me flew past me without me knowing. But this season seem to be more exciting than the last. haha
Arsenal is the richest club in Britain... second to Real Madrid only. HAHA...
I shared my thought for my friends to see.... I sometime will leak more than I will want to say but I know what to say. Friends that know me know long enough can read in between the lines and understand me. Those who don't know me long enough, I can only say it take time and effort.
Recently, a lot of stuffs happened.... and I think I grow a lot from it as well. I can say I grew up a bit more. I am really unhappy about my pay now... but who is ever happy I guess. If I am at the benchmark I am contented but I am 40% away from the benchmark so I guess just bide my time for now... when a better offering come along I just had to bid farewell... Loyalties stay with the highest payer. It is the FACT OF REALITY.
It is a fact... I write it now to remind myself so later that I will not let emotion rule my mind.... Everywhere is the same... everyone do the same things. Unless HE is born rich and no need to work... else why we work so hard for???
Recently I found new reason to watch soccer again... not sure how come I lose a bit of interests the past season. Last season to me flew past me without me knowing. But this season seem to be more exciting than the last. haha
Arsenal is the richest club in Britain... second to Real Madrid only. HAHA...
23 September 2007
Last few quotes from the Book
" All human relationship follows the same formula: Rapport = Trusts + Comfort"
"Interest + Attraction + seduction = sex"
" Using words like 'casual' and hang out', and the time constraint, were part of a strategy to make a visit a low-pressure event. It is a much better way to get someone to commit to time with a stranger. "
Page 408 to 409... a must read for all men. :-)
"Man never chooses the woman. All he can do is give her an opportunity to choose him"
"Interest + Attraction + seduction = sex"
" Using words like 'casual' and hang out', and the time constraint, were part of a strategy to make a visit a low-pressure event. It is a much better way to get someone to commit to time with a stranger. "
Page 408 to 409... a must read for all men. :-)
"Man never chooses the woman. All he can do is give her an opportunity to choose him"
21 September 2007
Obstacles
''obstacles don't have to stop you. If u run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure how to climb it, go though it or work around it. " Micheal Jordan
I just saw this on my way to work the other day.
Felt it is good to share with all my friends. :)
I just saw this on my way to work the other day.
Felt it is good to share with all my friends. :)
13 September 2007
How? What happen?
Been about 2 weeks since I last post. Time 2am...Date 13/09
These 2 weeks was really good. I got a gf and it seem my life is going up finally. everything seems to be in place and ready to move on. getting really busy at work, but I don't mind the stress as it mean that there is opportunity for me. What more to ask for now...
How I wish this bed of roses are there to stay forever. .
Everything was brought down to earth, Suddenly she decided to call it a stop. I really not sure why, I guess it is the usual me again. Saying something I didn't meant it or my ideas are being misrepresented by my mouth. I really don't understand. Why stop about what I thought was a very good talk.
That SMS message that I received from her at 850 in the morning,(..... Dun think can carry on..) make me shaken with cold shivers. Suddenly, I felt I lose someone really close. I lose focus on my work yet I need to put on a smile at work. HAHA. Life is joke. I really not sure why. But After re-enact the whole talk I guess I make a lot mistakes in the talk.
I let her lose confident in me and also i didn't give her security. I know myself that I make a really big mistake. I am really very sad, I find myself worse than the previous breakup. I fight back my tears the whole day at work but still find it really hard to hold back.
I know myself I will not give up easily now. For one reason, I believe I found that special ONE in her. She is really sweet and nice to me, very caring also. I am serious about this, at the end I guess I can only blame myself for all this. I guess I need to think before I talk. But I am someone that say what come into my mind. I don't want to go across as fake, I am like an open book. What you see is what you get.
I got a many pages( 10) proposal that I need to hand in by Thursday. Opps....It is 15 hours away from the deadline. Yet I haven't started on anything. I really no mood to write it, it was an opportunity for me. I believe I will screw up the whole proposal. I can only blame myself on this.
Why this must happen? I know I need to talk to her, there isn't anything wrong with the talk. It is just me, giving people the insecurity feeling.
To use my favourite analogy will be, I am 2-0 down with 15 mins to go, or even less time. I need a Kanu. Somehow this type of things always happen when the north london derby is at the weekend.
I felt I have been drop from the sky. Entering Free Fall mood......................................................
These 2 weeks was really good. I got a gf and it seem my life is going up finally. everything seems to be in place and ready to move on. getting really busy at work, but I don't mind the stress as it mean that there is opportunity for me. What more to ask for now...
How I wish this bed of roses are there to stay forever. .
Everything was brought down to earth, Suddenly she decided to call it a stop. I really not sure why, I guess it is the usual me again. Saying something I didn't meant it or my ideas are being misrepresented by my mouth. I really don't understand. Why stop about what I thought was a very good talk.
That SMS message that I received from her at 850 in the morning,(..... Dun think can carry on..) make me shaken with cold shivers. Suddenly, I felt I lose someone really close. I lose focus on my work yet I need to put on a smile at work. HAHA. Life is joke. I really not sure why. But After re-enact the whole talk I guess I make a lot mistakes in the talk.
I let her lose confident in me and also i didn't give her security. I know myself that I make a really big mistake. I am really very sad, I find myself worse than the previous breakup. I fight back my tears the whole day at work but still find it really hard to hold back.
I know myself I will not give up easily now. For one reason, I believe I found that special ONE in her. She is really sweet and nice to me, very caring also. I am serious about this, at the end I guess I can only blame myself for all this. I guess I need to think before I talk. But I am someone that say what come into my mind. I don't want to go across as fake, I am like an open book. What you see is what you get.
I got a many pages( 10) proposal that I need to hand in by Thursday. Opps....It is 15 hours away from the deadline. Yet I haven't started on anything. I really no mood to write it, it was an opportunity for me. I believe I will screw up the whole proposal. I can only blame myself on this.
Why this must happen? I know I need to talk to her, there isn't anything wrong with the talk. It is just me, giving people the insecurity feeling.
To use my favourite analogy will be, I am 2-0 down with 15 mins to go, or even less time. I need a Kanu. Somehow this type of things always happen when the north london derby is at the weekend.
I felt I have been drop from the sky. Entering Free Fall mood......................................................
02 September 2007
Is it Time to stop drinking
Is it time to stop the drinking and clubbing?
I got 3 friends that tell me it is time to stop and reduce it. The first one Kelvin, when he tell me that I was shocked. It really hit me. I decided to reduce the amount I drink at clubbing.
Last night KH and WL tell me to reduce.
I know I will have to stop. but I can say I really start to enjoy it now. I think I did tell KH that I will stop after the day. But somehow I continue. However this time I did say will be my birthday.
It will be the last day confirm this time. After my birthday. That it. 4 more months and less drinking from then on. As of now... hmmm I will start to reduce. Because What Kelvin told me really was a shock to the system. I drink less nowadays and I can foresee myself drinking less next the few months.
I got 3 friends that tell me it is time to stop and reduce it. The first one Kelvin, when he tell me that I was shocked. It really hit me. I decided to reduce the amount I drink at clubbing.
Last night KH and WL tell me to reduce.
I know I will have to stop. but I can say I really start to enjoy it now. I think I did tell KH that I will stop after the day. But somehow I continue. However this time I did say will be my birthday.
It will be the last day confirm this time. After my birthday. That it. 4 more months and less drinking from then on. As of now... hmmm I will start to reduce. Because What Kelvin told me really was a shock to the system. I drink less nowadays and I can foresee myself drinking less next the few months.
28 August 2007
Some paragraph from a wonderful book
Just like to quote from a very wonderful book that I am still reading.
It is Called THE GAME.
Just go and buy it and read it.
Very interesting.
"We have this idea that love is suppose to last forever.But love isn't that. It's a free-flowing energy that comes and goes when it pleases. Sometime it stay for life; other times it stay for a second, a day, a month or a year. So don't fear love when it comes simply because it make u vulnerable. But don't be surprise that it leave, either. Just be glad u had the opportunity to experience it"
" All human problems fall into 3 areas: health, wealth and relationship."
I am still reading it. Hope to find more meaningful things to write. I had written something from the book on one of my previous post. Just read them. Very Nice, I will set you thinking.
Must read for guys.
I going to lend this book to DS after I finish reading it. Hope this will help him. I will pass the book around my friends if they are interested in reading it. Just let me know.
It is Called THE GAME.
Just go and buy it and read it.
Very interesting.
"We have this idea that love is suppose to last forever.But love isn't that. It's a free-flowing energy that comes and goes when it pleases. Sometime it stay for life; other times it stay for a second, a day, a month or a year. So don't fear love when it comes simply because it make u vulnerable. But don't be surprise that it leave, either. Just be glad u had the opportunity to experience it"
" All human problems fall into 3 areas: health, wealth and relationship."
I am still reading it. Hope to find more meaningful things to write. I had written something from the book on one of my previous post. Just read them. Very Nice, I will set you thinking.
Must read for guys.
I going to lend this book to DS after I finish reading it. Hope this will help him. I will pass the book around my friends if they are interested in reading it. Just let me know.
26 August 2007
Drink Drink Drink III
The weekend had came and gone. Another week at St james Power station. Never expected much from the weekend clubbing. It seem to be like another day or friday/saturaday drinking. But this friday at dragonfly was different. I went there with a different group of friends. Actually I know only one person, my best buddy. haha... Got to know more people there.
One of my friend that club often told me that I need to change the group I go with. He was RIGHT. SPOT ON. The result was more fun and more enjoyable.
Not to say the group I always go with is not fun. I think it is just about about changing a group or a place once awhile. It is about looking for something of a change. Next weekend Will be at st James again. HAHA....
The last weekend was good. I really enjoyed myself there. Thanks Buddy. Although I always say you bo sim but you should know it is just joking lah... haha...
I also found something that was missing for a very long time...... I know it is found. Finding it also meant that I had taken a big step in my life.
One of my friend that club often told me that I need to change the group I go with. He was RIGHT. SPOT ON. The result was more fun and more enjoyable.
Not to say the group I always go with is not fun. I think it is just about about changing a group or a place once awhile. It is about looking for something of a change. Next weekend Will be at st James again. HAHA....
The last weekend was good. I really enjoyed myself there. Thanks Buddy. Although I always say you bo sim but you should know it is just joking lah... haha...
I also found something that was missing for a very long time...... I know it is found. Finding it also meant that I had taken a big step in my life.
23 August 2007
Drink Drink Drink II
I thought I should be writing i had drunk my last night and preparing myself for a long break. How wrong I was.
Going to drink again this weekend. I just feel loss for the whole week. Not sure why and how come I am so loss at this moment in time. trying to look for an answer for the whole of this week. Still not anywhere close to it.
My colleague told me that I am depress at the moment. I think she is right.
She is a very nice lady. Very comfortable to talk to her on some issue and I think it is fun to talk to her.
I still looking for something to fill up my life now. I think work will be but somehow, I still looking for a better paying job job because i believe my loyalty is with the highest payer and the one that give the most opportunities. I like to move around a lot, best is I can fly 90% of my time. I really like to do that. Therefore I think I really need to do well now, even though the pay is low.
Moving on from job to job in life is part and parcel of this life now. So I can only hope I learn what I need to learn and get the result I looking for and I move on. The colleague there is really nice however I don't think I will stay there just because of the environment. I am at the age where failure meant nothing to me. I can afford to fail and fail. Just need to tell myself I will stand up taller than the previous time.
I really felt it is time for me to give up drinking soon. But I still got 2 persons birthday coming up next Friday and sat. Most likely will be drink drink drink again. Hai...
I fear the weekend, I fear that I might be lonely during weekends. I fear going to drink again on weekend. It seems to be my only activities now. Not sure why. HAI.... HAI....HAi....
Need to find new activities to do... New group of friends...new activities.
I also don't know what I wrote... haha... just feeling tired from everything. I only know that I start to stop enjoying the clubbing and drinking now. Maybe it is just the low tide and low energy level... maybe next week I will be back again. Hope everything will be back to normal... I think I need to rest this weekend.
Going to drink again this weekend. I just feel loss for the whole week. Not sure why and how come I am so loss at this moment in time. trying to look for an answer for the whole of this week. Still not anywhere close to it.
My colleague told me that I am depress at the moment. I think she is right.
She is a very nice lady. Very comfortable to talk to her on some issue and I think it is fun to talk to her.
I still looking for something to fill up my life now. I think work will be but somehow, I still looking for a better paying job job because i believe my loyalty is with the highest payer and the one that give the most opportunities. I like to move around a lot, best is I can fly 90% of my time. I really like to do that. Therefore I think I really need to do well now, even though the pay is low.
Moving on from job to job in life is part and parcel of this life now. So I can only hope I learn what I need to learn and get the result I looking for and I move on. The colleague there is really nice however I don't think I will stay there just because of the environment. I am at the age where failure meant nothing to me. I can afford to fail and fail. Just need to tell myself I will stand up taller than the previous time.
I really felt it is time for me to give up drinking soon. But I still got 2 persons birthday coming up next Friday and sat. Most likely will be drink drink drink again. Hai...
I fear the weekend, I fear that I might be lonely during weekends. I fear going to drink again on weekend. It seems to be my only activities now. Not sure why. HAI.... HAI....HAi....
Need to find new activities to do... New group of friends...new activities.
I also don't know what I wrote... haha... just feeling tired from everything. I only know that I start to stop enjoying the clubbing and drinking now. Maybe it is just the low tide and low energy level... maybe next week I will be back again. Hope everything will be back to normal... I think I need to rest this weekend.
19 August 2007
Drink drink drink
Been drinking for the past 2 days.
Somehow I feel it is really time to take along break from drinking. Started to lose the joy from drinking. Maybe because alcohol is a depressant. I don't make me feel better. I believe that you need the mood to drink.
If you are feeling good, u can drink alot more. IF you are sad or the mood isn't right, it doesn't take alot to get you drunk . No matter how good a drinker you are. Drinking was never what I like but somehow, being lonely in the heart might be driving me toward drinking more.
Drinking is really bad for the body esp liver. That y I think I need to rest more, i have been drinking like I haven't drink for 100 years.
I thought meeting my sec sch friend on sat will not lead to drinking but I was wrong. I was back drinking again. hai~ I think I really need to take a long break after this week. Really tired easily and feeling very loss in life. Drinking is not going to solve the problem. You just feel worse when you wake up. Time to look for new activites to do on friday night and sat night.
After writing so much, I think I will still hit the club and pubs this weekend. When will the day come where I can really reduce it and make it a social events. Hmmm... going only on friend birthday and happy events.....
Hope that days come soon, else most of the weekend will be at st james again.
Somehow I feel it is really time to take along break from drinking. Started to lose the joy from drinking. Maybe because alcohol is a depressant. I don't make me feel better. I believe that you need the mood to drink.
If you are feeling good, u can drink alot more. IF you are sad or the mood isn't right, it doesn't take alot to get you drunk . No matter how good a drinker you are. Drinking was never what I like but somehow, being lonely in the heart might be driving me toward drinking more.
Drinking is really bad for the body esp liver. That y I think I need to rest more, i have been drinking like I haven't drink for 100 years.
I thought meeting my sec sch friend on sat will not lead to drinking but I was wrong. I was back drinking again. hai~ I think I really need to take a long break after this week. Really tired easily and feeling very loss in life. Drinking is not going to solve the problem. You just feel worse when you wake up. Time to look for new activites to do on friday night and sat night.
After writing so much, I think I will still hit the club and pubs this weekend. When will the day come where I can really reduce it and make it a social events. Hmmm... going only on friend birthday and happy events.....
Hope that days come soon, else most of the weekend will be at st james again.
16 August 2007
thursday 16/08/2007
Hmmm.... THE DAY I waited for a long time.
Went to get the answer today and somehow i got an answer or not an answer.
The answer don't seem to be the definite answer. It is not the YES or NO answer, which i source for a long time. IT is a wait, then see how is it, then decide answer. A answer that cannot decide now but later on in life. Many many years down the road I will have to decide.
Seem loss now with the answer. It is not totally bad or totally good. It just drag on. It will become better or it will get worse I suppose. Nothing can be done.
Not sure what to do. I think I need more time to think about it. Hai...why me???
Someone told me last night that I am a nice person so God will be fair to me... I guess she is right to a certain extent but still I am left to ponder on the issue.
I think tomorrow I will drink to my heart's content then decide. I will be at Dragonfly till late, Saturday still got to work. hmmmm.... I not sure whether drinking will help me, but somehow tomorrow my god-sister last day at work, going to celebrate and because TGIF. haha
Maybe the answer want me to live my life even more to the fullest.
Job wise, hope I can close more deal and learn more stuff.... Personally i feel it is stepping stone for me. I will move on when the time is right. Being Single now is also good, because i can keep the answer to myself only. No obligation to tell anyone. Later on if i ever get attached again, then i will ponder again.........
Enjoyed while you can because you never know when it will strike you. When it does, it is over.
I think I will sleep on it before I moved on in life. There is still so much things to do in life, not sure whether can try everything. Now I really know why people say in life need to be happy, too much things to do than to worry about others......
Went to get the answer today and somehow i got an answer or not an answer.
The answer don't seem to be the definite answer. It is not the YES or NO answer, which i source for a long time. IT is a wait, then see how is it, then decide answer. A answer that cannot decide now but later on in life. Many many years down the road I will have to decide.
Seem loss now with the answer. It is not totally bad or totally good. It just drag on. It will become better or it will get worse I suppose. Nothing can be done.
Not sure what to do. I think I need more time to think about it. Hai...why me???
Someone told me last night that I am a nice person so God will be fair to me... I guess she is right to a certain extent but still I am left to ponder on the issue.
Been drinking for the whole of last week because of this issue, now it is out i am no better. Hai...
I think tomorrow I will drink to my heart's content then decide. I will be at Dragonfly till late, Saturday still got to work. hmmmm.... I not sure whether drinking will help me, but somehow tomorrow my god-sister last day at work, going to celebrate and because TGIF. haha
Maybe the answer want me to live my life even more to the fullest.
Job wise, hope I can close more deal and learn more stuff.... Personally i feel it is stepping stone for me. I will move on when the time is right. Being Single now is also good, because i can keep the answer to myself only. No obligation to tell anyone. Later on if i ever get attached again, then i will ponder again.........
Enjoyed while you can because you never know when it will strike you. When it does, it is over.
I think I will sleep on it before I moved on in life. There is still so much things to do in life, not sure whether can try everything. Now I really know why people say in life need to be happy, too much things to do than to worry about others......
12 August 2007
Time to rest
After a week of continuous drinking and late night. my body finally give up last night.
I hardly had a glass of wine and my body was tired and keep sending me signal to sleep. This is the first time that I know that I cannot take it. I think I also celebrate my nation brithday. haha
anyway, decide to rest today at home because just cannot go out any more. too tired and hardly had time to stay at home. Just too tired.
This coming thursday is going to be important day of my life. Just waiting for it to come. Maybe it is a reason that y i am drinking so much. haha. EXcuses. It will come one day. so it is thursday.
I hardly had a glass of wine and my body was tired and keep sending me signal to sleep. This is the first time that I know that I cannot take it. I think I also celebrate my nation brithday. haha
anyway, decide to rest today at home because just cannot go out any more. too tired and hardly had time to stay at home. Just too tired.
This coming thursday is going to be important day of my life. Just waiting for it to come. Maybe it is a reason that y i am drinking so much. haha. EXcuses. It will come one day. so it is thursday.
09 August 2007
EPL 2007/2008
The final standings?
1. Man United
2. Liverpool
3. Chelsea
4. Arsenal
5. Tottenham
6. Everton
7. Newcastle
8. Aston Villa
9. Portsmouth
10. Blackburn
11. West Ham
12. Man City
13. Middlesbrough
14. Reading
15. Bolton
16. Sunderland
17. Fulham
18. Wigan
19. Birmingham
20. Derby County
This is the prediction posted on the website of Soccernet. u can read the article there.
As for me this is just another guide. Nothing is firm nothing is predictable.
For my pick, Arsenal will be champion come May. I supported Arsenal for a good 14 to 15 yrs already. So very year I Will pick only Arsenal to win. Arsenal is having one of the youngest squad in the league. Hunger and transition for 2 season i think is too long for such a big club, the saying is still Arsenal is still in Transition. But i can tell you NO. The transition is complete, selling off Henry is the final straw of this transition. It is time to unleash the young talent. Man Utd in the 1990 also unleash their 90s team about this time.
So just watch Arsenal go on to shock all parties. The talent is there, this group had been playing together for a good 5 years. What understanding and bond is there, now is to have no fear and take on the League.
Having said that, I feel this year 5 teams will be fighting the title. the Big 4 and Spurs. All the spending by Liverpool , man utd and Spurs is going to make a difference.
To me Arsenal not bidding for torres & allowing him to go liverpool is a big miss. Also losing Ryan Babel to liverpool is also sad for me. 2 are very talented and a good guarantee of 30 goals a season. This 2 will more than make up for the loss of form losing Henry. Henry will no doubt be miss but in life all move on. Eduardo is an unknown talent to many EPL viewer so less expectation and mean better to concentrate on the field. He is not tall, short in some standard but he is very good in his header. A player to watch out for, 15 goals a season player.
The player I believe at the end of May that every EPL fans will be talking about will be WALCOTT. The time have come for him to take the centre stage. Henry gone, no one to take the spotlight, the main line. There is farbegas and van perise but he is the next Henry...no he will not be Henry because there is only one... he will be WALCOTT a new legend in the making.
This year relegation fight, I think will be closer with up to 8 clubs fighting it. The 3 newly promoted club, but Sunderland might surprise. Reading, Bolton, boro, Fulham and Wigan. this 8 teams will fight the dogfight. 40 point is still the magic number for all this club.
Man city is a unknown for me because they are changing and they have a very good coach. Although Erickson flog big time as England Manager, he is a very good season manager. He is has won league title in 3 countries. that is an achievement. Man city might just squeeze into the top6 if he get the formula right in time which is 48 hours time...
Let us all get ready for, what they say, the best season yet for the EPL.
THE NEW SEASON BEGINS.
1. Man United
2. Liverpool
3. Chelsea
4. Arsenal
5. Tottenham
6. Everton
7. Newcastle
8. Aston Villa
9. Portsmouth
10. Blackburn
11. West Ham
12. Man City
13. Middlesbrough
14. Reading
15. Bolton
16. Sunderland
17. Fulham
18. Wigan
19. Birmingham
20. Derby County
This is the prediction posted on the website of Soccernet. u can read the article there.
As for me this is just another guide. Nothing is firm nothing is predictable.
For my pick, Arsenal will be champion come May. I supported Arsenal for a good 14 to 15 yrs already. So very year I Will pick only Arsenal to win. Arsenal is having one of the youngest squad in the league. Hunger and transition for 2 season i think is too long for such a big club, the saying is still Arsenal is still in Transition. But i can tell you NO. The transition is complete, selling off Henry is the final straw of this transition. It is time to unleash the young talent. Man Utd in the 1990 also unleash their 90s team about this time.
So just watch Arsenal go on to shock all parties. The talent is there, this group had been playing together for a good 5 years. What understanding and bond is there, now is to have no fear and take on the League.
Having said that, I feel this year 5 teams will be fighting the title. the Big 4 and Spurs. All the spending by Liverpool , man utd and Spurs is going to make a difference.
To me Arsenal not bidding for torres & allowing him to go liverpool is a big miss. Also losing Ryan Babel to liverpool is also sad for me. 2 are very talented and a good guarantee of 30 goals a season. This 2 will more than make up for the loss of form losing Henry. Henry will no doubt be miss but in life all move on. Eduardo is an unknown talent to many EPL viewer so less expectation and mean better to concentrate on the field. He is not tall, short in some standard but he is very good in his header. A player to watch out for, 15 goals a season player.
The player I believe at the end of May that every EPL fans will be talking about will be WALCOTT. The time have come for him to take the centre stage. Henry gone, no one to take the spotlight, the main line. There is farbegas and van perise but he is the next Henry...no he will not be Henry because there is only one... he will be WALCOTT a new legend in the making.
This year relegation fight, I think will be closer with up to 8 clubs fighting it. The 3 newly promoted club, but Sunderland might surprise. Reading, Bolton, boro, Fulham and Wigan. this 8 teams will fight the dogfight. 40 point is still the magic number for all this club.
Man city is a unknown for me because they are changing and they have a very good coach. Although Erickson flog big time as England Manager, he is a very good season manager. He is has won league title in 3 countries. that is an achievement. Man city might just squeeze into the top6 if he get the formula right in time which is 48 hours time...
Let us all get ready for, what they say, the best season yet for the EPL.
THE NEW SEASON BEGINS.
Quotes
It is my first post on this website. All my previous post are at http://neojunbin.blogs.friendster.com/my_thoughts/ .
Lazy to transfer over. Just 10 posts only.
Just want to add a quote here from a book.
The title is THE GAME by Neil Strauss.
" In Life, people tend to wait for good things to come to them. And by waiting, they miss out. Usually, what you wish for doesn't fall somewhere nearby, and you have to recongnise it, stand up, and put in the time and work it takes to get to it. This isn't because the universe is cruel. It is because the universe is smart. Ithas its own cat-string theory and knows we don't appreaciate things that fall into our laps. "
I think it is important to know what the quote is trying to say. Was out last night with some army buddies... we talk the same stuff and stuff again and again. DS please if u are reading this blog do something. We don't wan to be always at the same spot talking the same shit.
Lazy to transfer over. Just 10 posts only.
Just want to add a quote here from a book.
The title is THE GAME by Neil Strauss.
" In Life, people tend to wait for good things to come to them. And by waiting, they miss out. Usually, what you wish for doesn't fall somewhere nearby, and you have to recongnise it, stand up, and put in the time and work it takes to get to it. This isn't because the universe is cruel. It is because the universe is smart. Ithas its own cat-string theory and knows we don't appreaciate things that fall into our laps. "
I think it is important to know what the quote is trying to say. Was out last night with some army buddies... we talk the same stuff and stuff again and again. DS please if u are reading this blog do something. We don't wan to be always at the same spot talking the same shit.
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