Drink Drink Drink II

I thought I should be writing i had drunk my last night and preparing myself for a long break. How wrong I was.

Going to drink again this weekend. I just feel loss for the whole week. Not sure why and how come I am so loss at this moment in time. trying to look for an answer for the whole of this week. Still not anywhere close to it.

My colleague told me that I am depress at the moment. I think she is right.
She is a very nice lady. Very comfortable to talk to her on some issue and I think it is fun to talk to her.

I still looking for something to fill up my life now. I think work will be but somehow, I still looking for a better paying job job because i believe my loyalty is with the highest payer and the one that give the most opportunities. I like to move around a lot, best is I can fly 90% of my time. I really like to do that. Therefore I think I really need to do well now, even though the pay is low.

Moving on from job to job in life is part and parcel of this life now. So I can only hope I learn what I need to learn and get the result I looking for and I move on. The colleague there is really nice however I don't think I will stay there just because of the environment. I am at the age where failure meant nothing to me. I can afford to fail and fail. Just need to tell myself I will stand up taller than the previous time.

I really felt it is time for me to give up drinking soon. But I still got 2 persons birthday coming up next Friday and sat. Most likely will be drink drink drink again. Hai...

I fear the weekend, I fear that I might be lonely during weekends. I fear going to drink again on weekend. It seems to be my only activities now. Not sure why. HAI.... HAI....HAi....
Need to find new activities to do... New group of friends...new activities.

I also don't know what I wrote... haha... just feeling tired from everything. I only know that I start to stop enjoying the clubbing and drinking now. Maybe it is just the low tide and low energy level... maybe next week I will be back again. Hope everything will be back to normal... I think I need to rest this weekend.